Thursday, July 29, 2010

can't wait..i can't wait for it any longer.

hi there nice person!


There are 4 things that u can’t recover...

The stone...

...after thrown!



The word... ...

...after it's said!



The occasion...

... after loss!



The time...

...after gone!


Hello there nice person;
Did anyone ever tell you just how special you are? The light that you emit might even light a star.

Did anyone ever tell you how important you make others feel. Somebody out there is smiling. about love that is so real.

Did anyone ever tell you that many times when they were sad, your e-mail made them smile a bit, in fact it made them feel glad.

For the time you spend sending things and sharing whatever you find, there are no words to thank you, but somebody thinks you're fine.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010


"To keep a lamp burning, we have to keep putting oil in it."

mother teresa
Parenthood is my new-fav-series to watch.well, i'm not a very family person.i've decided to learn and live on my own, when i got the other choice.when i watched this series, i started to wonder "maybe that's how they felt about my action".

From the last night series, Sarah quoted something by Richard Bach to her daughter's boyfriend, Damien.as a mother, she's afraid if Amber might chose the same path as she did.maybe she's not ready, maybe she's too young.controlling is the only way most people know, on how to avoid all the taboo unnecessary trouble in life.


"if you love someone, set them free.If they come back they're yours; if they don't they never yours"

as she's told Damien that, she's telling herself the same.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

owh alfie!
jude law must watch.

remembering clementine



eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.this movie did explain about some phase in life.giving up.to forget and be forgotten.challenges.growing up.and again, obstacles that make this mind of ours forgot about the little thing that makes us happy at first.how reckless our heart keep playing our mind.what's fair and what's not.all we remember is how we feel today, and all that being forgotten were how we felt about everything today.and when it struck, it might be too late.but life will find it way.if it meant to be.


"how happy is the blameless vestal's lot
the world forgetting, by the world forgot
eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
each prayer accepted, and each wish resigned"
a drug a day keeps the headache away..

when everything seems blurry.
-wish everyone else morning and wish them the best
-stop complaining about yesterday
-have a cup of tea.
-stay in bed! and stop annoying others.

Monday, July 26, 2010

have faith.


"barangsiapa yang meninggalkan yang haram, dia akan mendapat yang halal"

berlari mencari bulan






jalan G belakang Bukit Bintang.
-theater
typical story line like most malaysian 'infotainment'.
a village-naive-idiot who came to KL, looking for long lost sister and were promised a job from a friend.kene tipu.so he ran and stuck and the back alley somewhere, where he met all the orang-pelik.
when i said typical it doesn't mean it's boring.the idea is the same, what makes it different is the delivering method.

take a look at me now

so take a look at me now,there's just an empty space, there's nothing to remind me the memory of your face.cause we shared the laughter and the pain, that's what i have to face






@ LANA's.2010


lana's off to Newcastle.good luck.

Friday, July 23, 2010

today is friday.

this note posted by a friend of mine had caught my interest, and i decided to post it here.i constantly feel less important in every jobs handled by me.reading this helps me realised, everything handled to us should be done as perfect as we can.

AKU TAKKAN MENANGIS

Pada setiap Jumaat, selepas selesai menunaikan solat Jumaat, seorang Imam dan anaknya yang berumur 7 tahun akan berjalan menyusuri jalan di kota itu dan menyebarkan risalah bertajuk "Jalan-jalan Syurga" dan beberapa karya Islamik yang lain.

Pada satu Jumaat yang indah, pada ketika Imam dan anaknya itu hendak keluar seperti biasa meghulurkan risalah-risalah Islam itu, hari itu menjadi amat dingin dan hujan mulai turun.
Anak kecil itu mula membetulkan jubahnya yang masih kering dan panas dan seraya berkata "Ayah! Saya dah bersedia"

Ayahnya terkejut dan berkata "Bersedia untuk apa?". "Ayah bukankah ini masanya kita akan keluar menyampaikan risalah Allah"
"Anakku! Bukankah sejuk keadaan di luar tu dan hujan juga agak lebat"

"Ayah bukankah masih ada manusia yang akan masuk neraka walaupun ketika hujan turun"
Ayahnya menambah "Ayah tidak bersedia hendak keluar dalam keadaan cuaca sebegini"

Dengan merintih anaknya merayu "Benarkan saya pergi ayah?"

Ayahnya berasa agak ragu-ragu namun menyerahkan risalah-risalah itu kepada anaknya "Pergilah nak dan berhati-hatilah. Allah bersama-sama kamu!"

"Terima kasih Ayah" Dengan wajah bersinar-sinar anaknya itu pergi meredah hujan dan susuk tubuh kecil itu hilang dalam kelebatan hujan itu.
Anak kecil itu pun menyerahkan risalah-risalah tersebut kepada sesiapa pun yang dijumpainya. Begitu juga dia akan mengetuk setiap rumah dan memberikan risalah itu kepada penghuninya.

Setelah dua jam, hanya tinggal satu saja risalah "Jalan-jalan Syurga" ada pada tangannya. DIa berasakan tanggungjawabnya tidak akan selesai jika masih ada risalah di tangannya. Dia berpusing-pusing ke sana dan ke mari mencari siapa yang akan diserahkan risalah terakhirnya itu namun gagal.

Akhirnya dia ternampak satu rumah yang agak terperosok di jalan itu dan mula mengatur langkah menghampiri rumah itu. Apabila sampai sahaja anak itu di rumah itu, lantas ditekannya loceng rumah itu sekali. Ditunggunya sebentar dan ditekan sekali lagi namun tiada jawapan. Diketuk pula pintu itu namun sekali lagi tiada jawapan. Ada sesuatu yang memegangnya daripada pergi,mungkin rumah inilah harapannya agar risalah ini diserahkan. Dia mengambil
keputusan menekan loceng sekali lagi. Akhirnya pintu rumah itu dibuka.Berdiri di depan pintu adalah seorang perempuan dalam lingkungan 50an.

Mukanya suram dan sedih. "Nak, apa yang makcik boleh bantu?"

Wajahnya bersinar-sinar seolah-olah malaikat yang turun dari langit.

"Makcik, maaf saya mengganggu, saya hanya ingin menyatakan yang ALLAH amat sayangkan makcik dan sentiasa memelihara makcik. Saya datang ini hanya hendak menyerahkan risalah akhir ini dan makcik adalah orang yang paling bertuah". Dia senyum dan tunduk hormat sebelum melangkah pergi.

"Terima kasih nak dan Tuhan akan melindungi kamu" dalam nada yang lembut

Minggu berikutnya sebelum waktu solat Jumaat bermula, seperti biasa Imam memberikan ceramahnya. Sebelum selesai dia bertanya " Ada sesiapa nak menyatakan sesuatu"

Tiba-tiba sekujur tubuh bangun dengan perlahan dan berdiri. Dia adalah perempuan separuh umur itu. "Saya rasa tiada sesiapa dalam perhimpunan ini yang kenal saya. Saya tak pernah hadir ke majlis ini walaupun sekali. Untuk pengetahuan anda, sebelum Jumaat minggu lepas saya bukan seorang Muslim. Suami saya meninggal beberapa tahun lepas dan meninggalkan saya keseorangan dalam dunia ini" Air mata mulai bergenang di kelopak matanya.

"Pada Jumaat minggu lepas saya mengambil keputusan untuk membunuh diri.Jadi saya ambil kerusi dan tali. Saya letakkan kerusi di atas tangga menghadap anak tangga menuruni. Saya ikat hujung tali di galang atas dan hujung satu lagi diketatkan di leher. Apabila tiba saat saya untuk terjun, tiba-tiba loceng rumah saya berbunyi. Saya tunggu sebentar, pada anggapan saya siapa pun yang menekan itu akan pergi jika tidak dijawab. Kemudian ia berbunyi lagi. Kemudian saya mendengar ketukan dan loceng ditekan sekali lagi".

"Saya bertanya sekali lagi. Belum pernah pun ada orang yang tekan loceng ini setelah sekian lama. Lantas saya melonggarkan tali di leher dan terus pergi ke pintu"

"Seumur hidup saya belum pernah saya melihat anak yang comel itu.Senyumannya benar-benar ikhlas dan suaranya seperti malaikat
". "Makcik,maaf saya mengganggu, saya hanya ingin menyatakan yang ALLAH amat sayangkan
makcik dan sentiasa memelihara makcik" itulah kata-kata yang paling indah yang saya dengar".

"Saya melihatnya pergi kembali menyusuri hujan. Saya kemudian menutup pintu dan terus baca risalah itu setiap muka surat . Akhirnya kerusi dan tali yang hampir-hampir menyentap nyawa saya diletakkan semula ditempat asal mereka.

Aku tak perlukan itu lagi".

"Lihatlah, sekarang saya sudah menjadi seorang yang bahagia, yang menjadi hamba kepada Tuhan yang satu ALLAH. Di belakang risalah terdapat alamat ini dan itulah sebabnya saya di sini hari ini. Jika tidak disebabkan malaikat kecil yang datang pada hari itu tentunya roh saya ini akan berada selama-lamanya di dalam neraka"

Tiada satu pun anak mata di masjid itu yang masih kering. Ramai pula yang berteriak dan bertakbir ALLAHUAKBAR!

Imam lantas turun dengan pantas dari mimbar lantas terus memeluk anaknya yang berada di kaki mimbar dan menangis sesungguh-sungguh hatinya.

Jumaat ini dikira Jumaat yang paling indah dalam hidupnya. Tiada anugerah yang amat besar dari apa yang dia ada pada hari ini. Iaitu anugerah yang sekarang berada di dalam pelukannya. Seorang anak yang seumpama malaikat.Biarkanlah air mata itu menitis. Air mata itu anugerah ALLAH kepada makhlukNya yang penyayang.

was nominated as UN best poem, by an African kid.

When I born, I black

When I grow up, I black

When I go in Sun, I black

When I scared, I black

When I sick, I black

And when I die, I still black

And you white fellow

When you born, you pink

When you grow up,you white

When you go in sun, you red

When you cold, you blue

When you scared, you yellow

When you sick, you green

And when you die,you gray

And you calling me colored?

not about what meet the eyes, it is what beat the heart

'you're like my favorite-tak-berbayar photographer'
that statement were given by few friends of mine about two or three years ago.yes, i captured your image not to say perfectly, but i dare to say awesome and i am proud with it.but who'll be my favorite camera person?me and my friend habil always agreed that it's difficult to gain satisfaction with our own photos taken by others.in the end, all the folders were all flooded with other people faces and moment.that's sad. hahaha, just kidding.being part of everything is nice, tho the image of myself weren't visible in most of it but the moment stays as i'm part of it.

i've been arguing with my dear friend about me getting my own dslr soon, but somehow my phone started to bermasalah and yea, now i'm contemplating.seems like u need to get the phone first,and my dear dream, u just have to wait.damn!

i've been craving for my own dslr since i don't remember when.it's like forever.the first time i ever used the slr was when i'm like 11 years old, and i just gedebuk and falling.the feeling of controlling how end image just great.it's in my hand.back then, i have to wait till all the films
habis.then only i can go kedai and cuci.no editing, and it's perfect with the flaws.and when the dslr were invented, i was like 'damn, i really want this'.

the Ixus i owned now is my second camera, but the first i bought with my own money.the first were a compact canon powershot.thanks papa.but somehow hilang dalam bilik in UiTM.Tho both are compact camera, but the images taken by were still awesome.but somehow, still my crave for the dslr can't fade.whenever i have the chance on using my friends dslr, i'll just chunk and leave miss Ixie in my bag.sorry dear.it had happen too many time before.hmmm~

when we were in Pangkor, during our final rendezvous. i left the canon powershot in my room and go capturing image with arif's 400D dslr.and all the nice photos jadi milik dia.cisss~

the Sabah trip, i was using Hafeez Nikon (can't remeber which series) like it was mine.

my cousin Nikon D40. she should get a longer zooming lens, so she won't have to get closer with the subject everytime.

Adam J new baby toy.i can't resist my my hand from capturing everything with it.what an irony, i was talking to a friend a day before about my plan, and the next day jumpa adam, he got his toy with him.

capturing memories.raw and non edited.


while i was writing,something just struck me.about three years ago, i knew someone through this networking thing-in.i love the photos uploaded by him, how he portrayed his girlfriend as perfect as he can.a photo speaks a thousand words.we heard that most of the time.and from the the photo taken by him. it shows happiness and serenity not on the subject which is the girlfriend, but he himsel.he captured her perfectly, as in portraying how he feels about her that time.



p/s
true.it's an old photos.need new adventures.

Thursday, July 22, 2010

lets go kill the butterflies!!!!!!!!!
i am sleepy~

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

everybody needs inspiration.


what would my mama do!!!

OH o OH o~
what if is a long ladder to climb on,
falling is none in the option of choices to be made,
let me falling, anti-gravity.
stop controlling and let me keep on falling
although there's no guarantee that 'this' life is easy
let see what's waiting
but you appeared like a dream,
and when i hit the ground, i'll be better men
have u heard of this thing call time?
clicks can tick it away and smiley will fill the space.
let's just fall, and not waiting to anticipate it.

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

please tomorrow come faster~~~

Monday, July 19, 2010


Jack and Jill went up that hill
To fetch a pail of water but there was a spill
And Jill tumbling down, all alone
All came tumbling down, oh no!
pulled down to the ground by gravity
Will it remain a mystery?








Sitting by window pane
Thinking am i going insane
Why do you only shoot me halfway to the moon?

how it knocked me off of my feet_

Friday, July 16, 2010


.james J.walker







Will you love me in December as you do in May,
Will you love me in the good old fashioned way,
When my hair has all turned gray,
Will you kiss me then and say,
That you love me in December as you do in May?

biar dia berubah jadi orang, bukan kita yang jadi haiwan
-hatta

Wednesday, July 14, 2010


'ampunk' , heard that before but
'suck alam'.that's new..

so, here it goes.
i was studying in suck alam for the last one and a half year,now i'm working in sunk way.
hell yea.

cam-whoring on mr.july.







Monday, July 12, 2010

so i ran.

somewhere someday i met a stranger


why you're in my mind
and why still there?
but somehow i'm afraid to know what it is


me with the weekend, mr.july

many more to come!
tak sabar..

Friday, July 9, 2010

summer breeze


Everything is more beautiful when they have passed.
This too shall pass.



kertas itu telah bernilai...

*ding

*floating

*ding...

let's go shopping~

have faith.


"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect.
It means that you've decided to look beyond imperfections"

happy thought


Thursday, July 8, 2010

humor


Sherlock Holmes and Dr. Watson go on a camping trip, set up their tent, and fall asleep. Some hours later, Holmes wakes his faithful friend.
"Watson, look up at the sky and tell me what you see."

Watson replies, "I see millions of stars."

"What does that tell you?" Watson ponders for a minute.

"Astronomically speaking, it tells me that there are millions of galaxies and potentially billions of planets. Astrologically, it tells me that Saturn is in Leo. Timewise, it appears to be approximately a quarter past three. Theologically, it's evident the Lord is all powerful and we are small and insignificant. Meteorologically, it seems we will have a beautiful day tomorrow.

What does it tell you?" "Watson, you idiot, someone has stolen our tent."



curi from adam.J

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

have faith.


I worry, I weigh three times my body
I worry, I throw my fear around
But this morning, there's a calm I can't explain
The rock candy's melted, only diamonds now remain
By the time I recognize this moment
This moment will be gone
But I will bend the light, pretend
That it somehow lingered on, well all I gots

Was there a second of time that I looked around?
Did I sail through or drop my anchor down?
Was anything enough to kiss the ground?
And say I'm here now and she's here now
And I will wait to find
If this will last forever
And I will wait to find
If this will last forever

-john mayer

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Have mercy on me.I need Your guidance.
I am not lost,
I just can't find my way.
have mercy on me.


"Allah does not overburden a soul with what it cannot bear"
(2:286)

Backbeat the word was on the street, that the fire in your heart is out,
I'm sure you've heard it all before, but you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels, the way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding
And all the lights that lead us there are blinding
There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how
I said maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me ?
And after all
You're my wonderwall._oasis




*pn neta's trip to Sri Lanka.
recapturing bawa's

my dear heart, let me tell you this.how could i leave when i am still missing you, and where's the place for me to stay if you don't let me in?this is the moment where everybody will be by your side, he said this and she'll say that.they mean well my dear, cause they want to see you stand still.like a lion.proud.
do you know how i feel. will you come to ask again?
my dear heart, maybe one day you'll find your way back.maybe i'll be there.maybe nothing will be the same or nothing will change.nothing to be forgiven because nothing to be blame.how come you're still here and how can i not believe in you my heart?
my dear heart, i can't erase the past, let me keep all that and learn.
i didn't leave my dear, but you left.but how can i not believe my heart?

Monday, July 5, 2010



"You may never know what results come of your action, but if you do nothing there will be no result"







(mahatma gandhi)

Sunday, July 4, 2010

from the facade and rear of klcc

*Archidex.hmmm..should go for the datum, next year then..

*Meet up with Adam.J who just came back from long vacation (balik kampung) together with miss ida.J.

*World cup fever with dua kaki bola
and an apek sesat.







location is discreet.thanks to adam.J new cam.macam biasa terlupa bawak memory card..LOL

lets have a tea on sunday morning

this is so past june,(in fact it is july now) and what will be too late if you ask me.everyday is a new day and for a-short-term-thinker like me as most people known, i'll just too spontaneous to even make a plan at first place.errrr..need to change that level of thinking, getting older as quoted by Morie, 'aging is not a decay, its growth'.

my memories are part of others journey, some stay some leave, and some remains silent.i've met a lot of people everyday, sit and talk to them while listening on how they viewing life are.
politics
football
career
books
rempit?
death

'life is too short to be piss off all the time', and what if we die tomorrow?
as how i always debating with others on how i'm holding on to things in my life.
don't do it if you're afraid that you'll regret it later and nothing is too late to be done because every moment is a new day.life will find its way, as we might call it written but the ink is in our hand.


Saturday, July 3, 2010

the new miss plotter

*woot woot

nothing much going on right now in my working unit.most projects are still in schematic phase, where the design will keep on changing on and on.personally me? i really need to show them that i can be trusted on doing any task although it just as simple as scanning stuff.

and this is interesting! whoever said that designing terrace houses is easy is definitely wrong!!! it is not just duplicating it and cantum cantum.it is quite challenging since the neighbours need to be consider on.the most 'sakit-hati' part would be , how typical it will look at the end of the day.
basically the layout, normally the same.
a rectangular shape of what, hmm..22' x 75' or many slightly bigger.entrance at the front of house, a living hall,dining area and the back will normally be kitchen.allocate voids will create luxurious-spacious-feeling, and the but is..either there's no family area upstairs or no bilik ketiga.maybe we can go higher, lets create the second floor.'no can't do..too costly'

it is so frustrating.
tanpa tandatangan, ianya hanya sekeping kertas.
terus jadi tak bernilai.


*jatuh miskin sementara

Thursday, July 1, 2010

killing times

true,it's office hour now.i finished the task given, so now bukan curi tulang tau. I was reading a note by Haliza's just now about a comedian from 70s,George Collin where he came out with something so eloquent.
......................................................

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways , but narrower viewpoints.
We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years.

We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill.
It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom.

A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, 'I love you' to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it.
A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind..

...........................................


a lady is part of a man's rib
not too low to be step on, as she's there to be protect
she's a complete picture of herself,
and man is a frame that compliment her well
she won't stand above the head, as she's there to bow
not too low as she's not a slave
because she loved once
and she need someone to be respect