Wednesday, November 16, 2011

ok..so this is so horrible..

at once, i've lost my lappie.. and now, my cammie rosak..owh dear, i miss snapping everything..

just another reason pulling my hair off..arghhhh..
so they asked, why are u still using the same old photo..

because it's me! duh..

Monday, September 26, 2011

Monday, September 12, 2011

syawal 2011

I'm asking for your help, I am going through hell,
Afraid nothing can save me but the sound of your voice.
You cut out all the noise,
And now that i can see, my stakes so clearly now
I'd kill if i could take you back,
But how? But how..

Monday, August 22, 2011

so he came again.Ramadhan.
surprise me as you always do.
just like how u always do.


Friday, August 12, 2011

will never cross my mind again.



the one thing i'm certain now.

drowning



gone the touch.
and so the interest.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

say hi to new Lucy

that's my new lappie..yeayyy...
finally i get myself a new one.but the worse part would be when i lost the old one since the my apartment kene masuk by i-don't-know-who.i came back form work one day, and everything like in the mess.
i love the idea of having the apartment for just myself , but since that incident i have to consider that idea again.it sucks to when there's no one to turn to when u need someone the most.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

have it ever cross your mind?

have you ever dream on how you want your life to be?
and at the end of the day, it turn out to be something different.too many path to choose, different roads are in front of you, offering everything that you want in life.
and today you stand here, looking at yourself, what?

what should you do, to go to the other side.to stop day-dreaming instead we just go run and grasp it.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

i refuse the idea of live to work, but what am i doing here, in my work space at 6.am..

Monday, June 6, 2011

feel so old with this life i had.
everything need to have reasons.
with the question why?

feel so old looking what had happen to me.
feel so old.
i'm not aging.
i refuse to be this.
feel so old.
and yet, i do nothing to regain my youth back.

priority changed, as time flies.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Just exactly as I remember
Every word
Every gesture
I'm a heart in cold ground

@my workspace.

Monday, March 28, 2011


you and me, equality.
thats how it should be, you and me.
people say that i creep you out,
no understanding, no cash in hand...
all i see, is apparently.
what do they know, it's you and me..
you and me..
you and me..it's equality

but uh oh, i love her because she moves on her own way~

Saturday, March 26, 2011


"i need to believe that something extraordinary is possible"
Beautiful Mind,2001

iridescent

Some people live in a house on the hill
And wish they were some place else
There's nobody there
When the evening is still
Secrets with no one to tell

Some I have known have a ship where they sleep with sounds of rocks on the coast
They sail over oceans five fathoms deep
But can't find what they want the most

Some live in towns
Cardboard shack on concrete
All bluster and bustling life
They search for the color you can never quite see
Cause it's all white on white

For me it's a glance and the smile on your face the touch of your hands,
And an honest embrace
For where I lay it's you I keep,
This changing world I fall asleep
With you all I know is I'm coming home,

Even now when I'm alone
I've always known with you
I am home
Sweet disposition
Never too soon
.Oh, reckless abandon
Like no one's watching you



A moment, a love
A dream aloud
A kiss, a cry
Our rights, our wrongs
A moment, a love
A dream aloud
A moment, a love
A dream aloud



So stay there
Because I'll be coming over
And while our blood's still young
It's so young
It runs
And we won't stop until it's over


Won't stop to surrender


Songs of desperation
I played them for you


A moment, a love
A dream aloud
A kiss, a cry
Our rights, our wrongs
A moment, a love
A dream, aloud
A moment, a love
A dream aloud

Wednesday, March 23, 2011



all we have is hope.
all you need is faith,
from me who always believe.
_zielaAzman.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

too many memories akan dia.



i know you don't read my status anymore.but that's for you.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Tuesday, March 15, 2011


it is easy to preach
as simple as wishful thinking
to understand what it meant.
to understand what should be done.

and at the end.
as hard to admit,
the truth is
I AM common.
undistinguished.

Monday, March 14, 2011


i know you don't mean any harm.
so do i.

it's better this way then.
erase me from your memories.
wash away our histories
which not meant to last.

don't mean for any harm.
but i can't mend this broken heart.

so do i.
don't mean to do any harm.

Sunday, March 13, 2011



nothing is hard enough to be done, but i don't like easy.
easy means cheap.

the big picture.

Bibi Aisha, an 18-year-old woman from Oruzgan province in Afghanistan, fled back to her family home from her husband's house, complaining of violent treatment. The Taliban arrived one night, demanding Bibi be handed over to face justice. After a Taliban commander pronounced his verdict, Bibi's brother-in-law held her down and her husband sliced off her ears and then cut off her nose. Bibi was abandoned, but later rescued by aid workers and the U.S. military. After time in a women's refuge in Kabul, she was taken to America, where she received counseling and reconstructive surgery. Bibi Aisha now lives in the United States. World Press Photo of the Year 2010, Jodi Bieber, South Africa, Institute for Artist Management/Goodman Gallery for Time magazine.



aku takut akan dunia.
aku takut akan mereka.
mengejar menjadi perdana.
agar disanjung bangga.

aku takut akan dunia.
terbuai neon, menghala aku kepada noda
terpesona akan indah sementara
terlupa apa itu dosa

aku tidak mahu bangga
hanya riang sementara

berlari aku dari dunia
dari semua yang mencengkam dada
mencari yang akan ada
memaafkan atas apa yang sudah tiada
kerana aku pernah ingin merasa
dah ingin khayal dalam rasa bangga.
akan aku cari pada yang ada
yang memaafi apa yang telah tiada.


restless little creature.ahahahhaa..can't seems to not do anything.

have faith.

"I get out of the bed and begin to make the quiet, nightly journey to the room across the hall, but am suddenly diverted by my longing.In Mummy''s room, in the drawer of her dresser where she kept her prayer rug, I find a copy of the Quran. I look up the verse-Ayatul Kursi-and find the words. Bismillah ir Rahman ir Raheem. "In the Name of God, Most Merciful, Most Compasionate, "I read, in English and in Arabic. He knows what lies before them, and what is after them, and they comprehend not anything of His knowledge save such as He wills. I trace the words with my finger, over and over again, and realized what i did not before. That not all questioned can be answered. That some truths are beyond the capacity of our minds to understand."
[pg 303-304,Nafisa Haji_ The Writing on My Forehead]

have faith!
have faith..have faith.

please have faith.this world is just temporarily.

and finally, this came out from my mama.
"so, how's he? lama tak datang.doesn't he call?
i like him."






"i like him too.but i'm not sure he feels the same way anymore."mumbling silently.

he know what he should do, and i should understand what it mean, if he do nothing.

Friday, March 11, 2011


all time favorite playlist.
back and forth, and side by side.

1)wonderwall-oasis
2)by your side-sade
3)lovely day-bill withers
4)more than this-vanessa carlton
5)ordinary man-john legend
6)talk-coldplay
7)when will i see your face again-jamie scott & the town
8)someday we'll know-mandy moore
9)i'll do anything-jason mraz
10)no ordinary love-sade
11)sunday morning-maroon 5

Tuesday, March 8, 2011


all my pasts have move on towards their future.
and i just stood here, where i was.
and still i am here.
envy?
all best wishes for all of you.
and vengeance? i am just too old.
and yet no where.

and something is knocking the back of my head.
something so old.just too long ago.
*but you don't pull my strings.coz i'm a better men, moving for a better things.

and my 'better' seems to move far with his dreams.

will keep on repeating that.
good things will never come to the end.

owh, it's happy woman day.


thank you for the bluntness.because i never understand hidden messages underneath.
i'm always the miss drama queen right.


Monday, March 7, 2011

10.30pm on Monday night.was in the shower.i love showering late night.not healthy i realized, but it's the only time i feel empty, calm and controlled.

this is my sphere,
my place at my own pace.
and there it is, humming at the back of my head.

*like memories in cold decay,
transmissions echoing away,
far from the world of you and i,
where oceans bleed into the sky...

beating itself at my back,
again and again..

for those curiosity
and faith that's fading away
too short to be remembered
to long to be waited for.
yakini aku, what's with the words came out from that silence
yakini aku,andaia jujur.

*isya'


*terkadang rasa sunyi dan rindu.
127 hours.

*lovely day by bill withers.

Thursday, March 3, 2011


so I'll love whatever you become
and forget the reckless things we've done
I think our lives have just begun
I think our lives have just begun

and I'll feel my world crumbling,
and I'll I feel my life crumbling
and feel my soul crumbling away
and falling away,
falling away with you

staying awake to chase a dream
tasting the air you're breathing in
I hope I won't forget a thing

promise to hold you close and pray
watching the fantasies decay
nothing will ever stay the same

and all of the love we threw away
and all of the hopes we've cherished fade
making the same mistakes again
making the same mistakes again

of memories i'll never find

Monday, February 28, 2011

Sunday, February 27, 2011


enjoying P/S I Love You on lazy Sunday.

P/S,
never fail to make me laugh and smile at the same time.

enjoying P/S I Love You on lazy Sunday.

P/S,
never fail to make me laugh and smile at the same time.of oldies, of memories.

Friday, February 25, 2011

and yes, it's Friday.
no reason to actually go to the firm tomorrow, it's is Saturday.
the last week of February.it's almost a year since i moved to pj, Sunway to be exact.
and praise to God, as He gave me this strength.to go on with everything i always thought impossible for my limbs to handle.
to give this opportunity,for me to learn.to accept this fate of mine, and not regret for every steps i've made.
to learn to forgive myself, and let go every grunge i'd kept inside.
please keep me safe.



my every moment favourite

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

hibernasi separa sedar


nga..

ngaaaa...ngangangangaa....

cepatlah pukul 6.the point where nothing good can happen at all.balik dan tidur.mesti best.kaki sakit sebab jogging the other day.it still hurt.uncomfortable.can't actually concentrate as none of i'm doing is urgent.

mencari alasan..mencari cari lubang hitam.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

february 2011


the beat goes around and round
the beat goes around and round

i never really got there,
i just pretended that i had
what's the point of instruments
words are sawed off shotgun

come on and let it out
come on and let it out

Monday, February 21, 2011

plugged-in

very commercial by the junior.and the bachelors just bring back the memories.like the first time i involved in this mess.

great meet-up moment.
unexpected faces
a night full with laugh.and laugh.
two nights to be exact.

Percaya.dan yakin.
dengan apa yang kita ada pada hari ini.bersyukurlah.


New resolution!

never to late to make a new year resolution, although it's almost the end of February.Just have the time to actually breath.It feels good.It do.

To live dreams.that's what i'll do this 2011.

Thursday, February 17, 2011

all my best prayer.

.
They paved paradise and put up a parking lot
With a pink hotel, a boutique
And a swinging hot spot
Don't it always seem to go
That you don't know what you've got
Till it's gone
They paved paradise
And put up a parking lot




woke up this morning with 'this' smile on my face.grinning on my own, i was about to shout 'yeayyyyy, it's already Thursday.and tomorrow is the last day of the week.can't wait for weekend, to actually rest and do nothing.

and now, how i wish for tomorrow to not show ur face.at least not until i'm done with the layout, and 3ds and everything.yes sir, u know i'll never let u down.


Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Monday, February 14, 2011

walaupun merangkak dan keseorangan, i'll go for it as i've missed it before.that's the aim for march.

cherish the day

Sunday, February 13, 2011

your smile will brighten the world.just smile please.


just found out.
hot air balloon festival is coming to town again.
*giggling super excited

Saturday, February 12, 2011


"yang salah tetap salah, namun sentiasa ada ruang untuk perubahan.
because nothing last forever.
insyaallah"

feels good.moment satu.
i got myself a new purse.it's red and it's cheap.





the baloons,
the flowers
and lovely dinner.

Friday, February 11, 2011


"daripadaNya kita datang, kepadaNya kita kembali"

my condolence for her family and you too mr.nua'im abd.rahman.
al-fatihah.

Thursday, February 10, 2011





dinner for tonight.
the ingredients are,
some onions,
tofu,
egg plant (deep fry),
instant mee (chicken flavour),
mixed pepper.

tadaaaaa~

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

a sip of tea for this restless mind

"masakan tidak rindu namun,
andai begini takdirnya."



Happy Wednesday peeps,
*grinning
Yesterday was waaaay gloomy, lets hope today the sun will shine our day..

bright warm days on February, please make your way to us
keep it warm.
keep it safe


Pixies-Here comes your man

Monday, February 7, 2011


definitely make my day! thank you.


thank you for turun visit
and that's seremban for you.
*blush @ yahoo messenger

when was the last time i changed the ym status?ahaaa

Sunday, February 6, 2011

broga, january 2011

better in time

video

only You i seek.speak


dengan malu untuk berharap
agar Kau mengetahui
atas kesalahan yang telah diperbuat
hati dan perasaan mulai teruji
selembut doa dalam hati
Kau Maha Mengetahui

Kala menyahut panggilanMu
Ampuni aku
aku bersujud,dan aku berdoa
memohon keringanan hati
mementukan pilihan...menuju rahmatMu

hanyalah padaMU..ya Tuhanku.ya Allah

Friday, January 28, 2011

tuttt truttt..

hello?


hey babe....bla bla bla bla yada yada yada...bla bla blaaaa
.....................................................................................................................
**(^GJB ..........................~~~~~

hahahahahha.....

sounds like you're already ngantuk.gudnite dear....


*call duration 01.04.00 (berborak sampai telinga panas)


sekali sekala ikut hati memang berbaloi_quoted nokia E5



Thursday, January 20, 2011

aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
seiring jejak kakiku bergetar
aku tak terpagut oleh cintamu
menelusup hariku dengan harapan
namun kau masih terdiam membisu

sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
mendakap penuh harapan
untuk mencintaimu
setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
memnanti sebuah jawapan untuk memilikimu

betapa piluya rindu menusuk jiwaku
semoga kau tau isi hatiku
dan seiring waktu yang terus berputar
aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku

*for my dreams and for yours too.how long will it last.just like the first time i wrote bout you.
we're all move on to be a better men.
and i don't know what to do, but do u know i like u.

Monday, January 17, 2011

how i'm afraid to know about how you're doing
what if you're happy without me by your side,
to hear that you're a better man with me off your sight
all i want to know is whether i'm still in your mind,
do you still think bout me like i always wish you will?
or i'm just being washed out from it, to place a better memories
how i'm afraid just to find that out

just clicking your name gives me butterfly
like how i felt, like how it always felt
and to know that i'm out of ur sight?i can't bear to know if that's the truth
as i'm the one who's running this time,
run alone, just to smell that fragrance i always miss
just like how i was waiting for you
all i want is just you, but all i cared is just me
if my ego wasn't that high,
maybe i'll still be at that safest place
that's where i always have my faith
that nothing can ever break my heart
because you my dear always warm my heart...
till i find somebody new, or maybe i'll find you again.
-for the lover that i can't appreciate while you're by my side,but i always wish that you're when you're not around


Tuesday, January 11, 2011

i am so not-up-to-date with the current songs being play in radio station now days.for a very long time i do believe. i've been listening to my playlist most of the time, (well, i never up-to-date with anything in my whole life actually).
anyway, the other day i watched the AJL since i have nothing better to do at my place on Sunday nite and i was listening to lagu pelita by A.P.I, that's the first time i listen to the full version of that song and i like the lyric.so, i just wanna quote it back.

tak pernah sesaat daku meragui
apa yang telah daku temui selama ini
tak pernah sesaat daku menyesali
apa yang telah ku alami ~~ selagi hayat dikandung badan

if we never appreciate our own self, then how do we expect others to do the same on us rite.to see myself now, i feel BIG! ahahaha...i mean, i'm proud to where i stand since i never imagine me, HERE doing what i'm doing right now.
i don't mumble! ahahaha..they always said i'm mumbling every time i'm explaining anything to them.i never realised that all this while cause i always thought i talk too loud and i should turn down the volume a little bit.need to work out on that.
maybe that's the reason why people don't pay any attention to what i said, cause they can't pick up what i'm trying to tell them..blame myself for being such a 'kera sumbang' during childhood.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

i'll keep it long.

When people did not stick with you for quite some time,

just look back & think how did you treat them before.

Then, do not blame when they left .


.learned.

have faith.


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